MAN this day just keeps dragging on... Still got a couple hours to go, and I'm dying of freakin boredom here... Still no news on where the heck my shipment from SVC is...they never told me they shipped it, so I have no reason to believe it's on the way. Darn people. www.battleon.com is kinda fun, if simple and badly-drawn. Nice game to play on your lunchbreak. I'm lvl 23! Muah hah hah! Wearing my dusk robe, I strike down yon enemies with my selection of elementally-biased weapons! Oh CRAP, I don't have an ice weapon...Ahhhhhhhhh! *snatchslurpgulp...BELCH* Mmm, spicy food. If you can't beat 'em, eat 'em. :K9

Ugh. Tiring day yesterday. Took that bloody history exam, (Was easy, definitely not worth the study-time I put into it) turned in the journalism assignment, (It wasn't as bad as I thought it was). Then I drove home...Shadowwulf called me up and told me to come over to watch CSI, (the furry episode.) I told him I was tired, but I'd call him back. Then Bastian called and told me to go to Shadowwulf's, and that he'd be bringing kit-kat bars. So I went. 9,9 I can't turn down kitkat bars...particularly frozen ones.
We watched the episode, laughed at it, discussed it a bit, then looked up stupid animations online. ;K)
Today, I had to bluff my way on base without my ID card, (left it in my office desk) then had to go exchange my old ID card for one with my fingerprint and SS information on it, (This one you can stick in various slots and get authorized for...espresso? I don't know.) That took awhile...but I got back to my office and microwaved my pathetic frozen dinner for lunch...and then dropped it. Gravy-splatters everywhere...peas everywhere...mashed potatoes saved by the plastic wrap on top, but...*sniff* It was still a horrible scene of carnage. I almost cried. My fooooooood...

Tonight, I am going to SLEEP. I want SLEEP, and I'm gonna get it. Then I'll go see Shadow and Senajit again, play games, and miss out on sleep. Bah.

*sighs* I'm about as well as I can be. A couple friends talked with me about it last night, and it helped a little. I missed French class yesterday... Journalism prof gave us a nasty assignment due tomorrow... I have another history exam tomorrow as well. Doesn't leave me much time to relax tonight, dang it...
Ordered some more stuff from svc.com on Monday. Maybe it'll come by Friday. Wish I had the will to write...but I just feel awful. Wrung out. Listless.

Geez...that completely ruined my night. My week. The rest of the month.
If you're reading this, and I hope you do eventually since you've page ignored me again, I don't even know what to say. You expected me to continue to punish myself for no reason? Once you were gone, there was no reason to stay away. You were *done* with me, you made that clear. I need all the friends I can get, but you come from 'beyond the grave' to yell at me for taking up with someone I left just because you loathed them? No, I did not 'learn' the lesson you wanted me to. I certainly don't hate you, despite all the pain and heartache you've dragged me through. If you've actually been through suffering because of me as well, then I'd call us even...but I don't owe you anything. If you want to try and dictate my life again, you're going to have to be part of my life again. And of course, that will never happen. DAMMIT why do you have to come back and tear me open again?! I was doing better!! I'd finally started to have fun again, and you shove that horrible pain of the past into my face like a handful of glass! I WANT the air to be clean between us, but you drag out the old hates the second time you contact me this *year.* I haven't changed! I'm not good at change! But I do learn, eventually...
I have to fight myself not to beg and blubber, to try and get you to take me back. I don't want to put myself in that position again, even though I want it. Painfully so. Whether everyone's right and you lied to me over and over or not, or whether you've been truthful all along and coincidence explains the rest, it doesn't matter. What matters is that our recent past was nothing but pain, hate, cruelty, and an utter lack of empathy, on both our parts. You didn't want me to see my friends, and I put up with that for awhile, willing to do so in exchange for you...but I never got you. You never materialized. I was tolerated... Then someone went too far and I left them, and you immediately cast me off. Now you stick your head back in, see that I've gone back to the friends you decreed I stay away from, and you're angry? Don't you see anything?! Are you that blinded by your assumptions and warped morality?! You didn't want me! You threw me away! Was I supposed to follow 'all of your teachings' in the hope you might one day deign to return?! NO! I won't do it! Your mere absence hurt me for so long; but now your brief presence brought back that old pain three-fold! You MUST hate me to do such things to me...
I'm out of time... For those who have no idea what I'm talking about, disregard it...

I didn't get to see Fin this weekend... :K( Looks like shi showed up for a couple hours early in the day Sunday, so I missed hir... *sigh*
My sister visited this weekend, and Mom was totally ga-ga over the baby, Abi. (She *is* a cute baby, and very smile prone). Mostly I stayed home and watched movies, worked on homework... I picked up three movies for less than eight bucks at the store, (to own.) Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Contact, and The Postman. I hadn't seen the Postman before, though I'd read the book...I must say I hate how they murdered the story. (At least, I think they murdered the story. It's been awhile since I read it.)
I'm worried about my computer's continuing problems. I wonder what could be causing them... My CD-RW continues to elude detection by the computer at bootup, though I can 'scan for hardware changes' and force it to reveal its presence.

Updates on the website are going to be slower; my trail ran out on the software I was using. x,x Besides the registry, anyone know where a shareware program hides its 'days-used' key?

Someone sent me an email about my rant on Sport hunters and such, but I accidentally deleted it along with my junk mail. Could they please resend it, if they want me to read it?

That's about it I suppose... A new week, a new series of miseries at work and at school. Bah humbug. :K/

Anima

Finally got my PSU yesterday! Though it has a few annoying quirks, it seems to work just fine. I sleeved all the PSU wires, and switched out the fan grille for the lion grille I've been itching to use. Unfortunately, I experienced the same reboot problem I did with the other power supply, so I guess the PSU wasn't the problem. :KP

Fin emailed me today! It's so great to hear from her... There's a link to her page on my site, though I call her DreamDancer there. Go peek. :K)
I have to stay late today, on account of coming in 20 minutes late, and taking a half hour lunch. Gah. Staying late on Friday suuuucks.
I feel like writing something today...don't know what yet. But it won't be on the website for awhile, :K( My trial period with the web page creator software I've been using ran out, and my usual tricks to make it forget I've used the trail aren't working. Oh well.

I'm considering going to MFF this year... It sounds fun, and it might be feasible...
Is anyone reading this panning on going? :K)

Anima

*falls over laughing* http://weebl.fluent.ltd.uk/
You *must* see this stuff if you haven't already. Yes, he did create that addictive Badger/Mushroom/Snake thing, but his Patrick Moore and Scampi toons are just as good if not better. Of course, now they're stuck in my head... Oh well. :K)

I've seen things! I've seen them with my eyes-- I've seen things, they're often in disguise, like Carrots, handbags, cheese, toilets, Russians....
I also came across 'Arfenhouse,' which is...bizarre. o,O But also very very...funny. O,o There's a link to it in Weebl's forums somewhere, I'm too lazy to pick it out again.

Stupid FedEx. No one was home to receive my package, so they took it back with 'em and will try again tomorrow. Bastards!!! I wanted my new toy *today!* *sobs pitifully* Darn them...darn them all and their geek-hating black hearts... Why Jeebus!?! Whhhhhhhhhhhy?!

*Grumble*

My new power supply arrives today! Squee! :K)
I'm scanning technical documents today at work. Lots of fun. *waves a tiny flag* Adobe Acrobat is one of the crappiest OCR products ever made, in my opinion. You know you can't even hi-light all the converted text on a page, and normalize its font or size? It just won't let you. You have to do it by sentence, word, sometimes by bloody *character*. Infuriating work.

I turned in relatively early last night, and so I actually got to work on time today. Which means I can *leave* on time today! Or, actually, a bit early. :K9 I stayed later than I had to a few days this and last week, so I'm leaving 1/2 hour earlier so I can get home and play with my new toy.

From the Ohiofur list it sounds like the Boo at the Zoo and the Kreepy Krawl activities went well. :K) Wish I could've gone, but I was also happy with how my camping trip went. Someone suggested I try and make it to Mephit Fur Meet this year, and I'm considering it... Would anyone like to see me there? :K) I'll have to think of a quick costume though... Maybe a rubber panther muzzle, and face paint? And a headband with kitty ears? And a tail? Mebbe gloves too. Trenchcoat over that, with my battery-powered EL wire wound around the sleeves. :K9

I'm reading an odd book Senajit lent me called Excavation. Booby traps, archeologists, murder, etc. Interesting read... A mummy's head exploded and spurted gold-goo everywhere. o,O

I may add some more stuff to my webpage today...we'll see.

Ta for now!

Anima

Well, gleaned from my net searches today, I learned that a) Yes, the price of the ATI Radeon 9600 Pro video card has dropped somewhat...but most haven't caught on.
b) The Warcraft-ized version of 'Badger Badger Badger Badger Mushroom Mushroom' can be found here: http://ninjarobots.net/weebl/badger.wmv
and c) That the battery-powered inverters for Glowire (electroluminescent wire used in casemods) cost around 15 bucks and can be found at www.glowire.com's online store. Sunbeam, the company who makes a similar product, doesn't offer battery-powered inverters.
Oh! And d) There's been an interesting project involving hi-tech lasers at Stonehenge that has uncovered some *markings* on the stones that are invisible to the naked eye. Sweet! I couldn't learn more due to the posted addy being wrong. *pout*

I also read SomethingAwful's collection of furry forum posts, and laughed/sighed/snickered. All the stuff I find perfectly fine, (Well, except for that bit about jerking off to Moogle pictures, eek!) absolutely disturbed the writer to the core. Hee hee, hope he never stumbles across my site. Anyways, I wish I knew where he collected some of these posts. :K)

Anima

Returned from camping this weekend, and a visit to Shadowwulf and Senajit's place before that. Meep, I'm sleepy... Camping was nice; Asmo and I really enjoyed nature's Fall Fashion Show, (Those trees have great figures,) though there were too many people around (and we made too much noise crunching through leaves ourselves) for the animals to make an appearance.
We also stopped by the Bookery, and picked up a few comics. I found some more Captain Atom! (Silver plated quantum-powered hero from the 80's. :K) Let's see...
I ordered a new power supply; they shipped it today, most likely. So I'll get it Thursday, if nothing untoward happens. It's quite...premoddy, so I'll have to mess it up a bit.
I have some new story ideas queued up in my Writer's Notebook, so I may do a bit of writing sometime soon. I have shortened schooldays this week, so it'll give me more opportunity than usual to put fingers to keys. (Hmmph. So much of the romanticism of writing is gone...but I can't say I miss ink-stains and cramps from writing for hours at a time.)
Oooooooh! I wanna see Kill Bill! Mebbe next week, Asmo may have some time off.
(Asmo, Shadowwulf and Senajit are all furs somewhat local to me, by the way. The latter two are gamer-freaks, while Asmodeus is more nature-tied.)
S'pose that's all. I'm just here at work whiling away the hours... Mebbe I'll do some more website work later. Kirzen signed my guestbook!!! :KD So, that's one entry. She got the number one spot, all you layabouts. ;K)
Anyways, be well.

Anima

I wrote a letter to the Fish and Wildlife Service, the people proposing this policy change. How on earth could those people, who are all about conservation and everything, be deluded enough to think such a change would be a GOOD IDEA?!
Here's my letter.

To Whom it May Concern,
I barely had time to comment on this draft before it was closed to public comments. I feel these proposed changes would do far more harm than good to protected/endangered species. There are too many ways to convince the bureaucracy that the blatant exploitation and harvest of endangered animals could somehow conceivably aid in their preservation, not to mention gaining permits through illegal means.
Making this legally feasible is a grave mistake, sacrificing members of a dying species in a feeble attempt to bolster the economy. Enough endangered animals die every year to register as a tragedy; why on Earth would we allow American commerical interests to compete with the loathed poachers?
Certainly there's some benefit to the poor countries where many of these animals are found, but there are alternatives to allowing them to drive rare beautiful creatures out of existence!
Endangered animals in the wild are not exactly a renewable species at the rate they're disappearing, and if this policy change goes into effect, we'll all watch the dim remaining flicker of hope for the species blow out. For what? Some nice rugs, an ivory chess set, and a few hundred coats? Maybe some new shoes or a purse? Surely, that's well worth the price of never seeing a unique creature again in its natural setting.

A disgusted US citizen,
Joshua Hastie

Okay...this just makes me feel ill.
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/articles/A10660-2003Oct10.html
Apparently, the Bush administration is considering allowing American circuses, pet enterprises, and hunters to kill, capture and sell endangered animals outside of the US. That is, as long as the animal isn't endangered in the US, it's okay to capture/kill/sell it.
Why? They think it will help the economy of both our country, and those whose people badly need the money to be had from exploitation of these animals.
We need to do something about this. The sooner the better. Maybe we can start a petition, and send it along to our government reps. If it looks like it's gaining support, we could resort to picketing someplace. And of course, we could find out which pet enterprises/circuses participate, and boycott the stuffing out of them. But I have a feeling it won't go that far. Surely there will be such an outcry over this that they'll apologize for ever proposing it.
I hope.

Disgusted,
Anima

Okay, I made it to that fur's house on Sunday, and slept there so I wouldn't have to drive home in the dark. :K) (I'm a terrible navigator; I get lost on every trip at least once. This time though, I was only a block and a half from my target when I called them and mewled for help.)
The fur, his furry roomate, and a visiting fur and I played Total Annihilation for awhile. Nasty computer problems kept it from being *great*, but it was still a nice bit of fun. While I was there, I also raided their computers for pr0n, and will be weeks sorting it all. ;K)
But one thing I got, and that I want to talk about, is a bit of Associated Student Bodies. It's a comic about a young lion who is put in the 'gay' dorm, and discovers he too is gay. He takes up with his roomate, a pretty wolf, and over the course of the year is immersed in gay culture and all the strangeness of it. Then he's finally forced to tell his parents, and his father disowns him...his lover started to pick a fight with the dad, and the poor lion just went off on them both, and ran. He patched up later with his wuff, and with the help of a (thankfully) rather liberal priest, he even made his father face facts and try to accept his son's homosexuality. It's a terribly touching story, and I cried several times working through it... If you haven't had the chance to read it, find a place that still sells it if possible, and pick up the nine or so issues.

I'm going camping this coming weekend with another fur, so that should be fun/cold. :K) Not a whoooooole lot going on aside from that. My brother's still an ass, Dad bought a chest-type freezer for the basement, (I was stabbing the box it came in with my wakizashi when he asked to try. He swung it with a good bit of force, but lost his grip, and it sliced along his leg!!! Luckily, it's a really CHEAP sword, and has less of an edge to it than those plastic serrated butter knives. So he just got a bruise. Oy ve! Never let your Dad handle your weaponry!) I don't have any journalism classes for the rest of this week, and all of next week, so I can come home hours earlier! Woot! French test tomorrow, (pfft) and I'll see how I did on my history test, (quaking in my boots) aaand submit the final draft for my memoirs essay in English. (Yay.) I wrote about my first harrowing night in Africa, with my silly parents. It was an attempt to get back into missionary work, but we were only there three months before rebels marched towards our village, and we were called back to the capitol. A week later, the rebels were making for the capitol, and the mission was closed. MAN that screwed up my life...Oh well, maybe some good came of it I just can't see.
Well, guess I better work a bit. Later!

Laaaaaazy Saturday. Didn't go to the fur's house like I planned, too laaaaaazy. Umm...wow. I had a weird dream last night... I was at some sort of English school with all these weird stone houses, (Like, rocks, with the mortar between them, not cement or anything) and I couldn't find where I'd parked. Finally I encountered my Mom, and we wandered around until we found an old rusty factory or something. We were trying to climb to the top, to get out through a door on the top level to...somewhere, when we come to a place where a bit of walkway was removed. Mom jumped like, ten feet, over to a place with spare boards and stuff, and jumped back, to bridge the gap! But the next walkway buckled under her, and she was like, bouncing and scrambling like some kind of cartoon...but finally fell in a heap, and had stars over her head and everything. Bizarre!
And since I was lazy today, that's pretty much all there is to report. Oh, I also decapitated several million lifeforms today. IRL. (I mowed the lawn.)

Wow...lookit all the hits my page has gotten. o,O Over 200, and it's only been like...three weeks? I didn't expect to be up to 40, by then. :K) I also added the URL to Google, but it'll take some time for them to crawl it. (Whatever that means.)

I'm in a timewarp, I suspect... I feel like I've been here at work for three days, but it's only been...four hours and six minutes, 4 seconds. I've already read all my webcomics, messed with the homepage some more, answered my emails and done some banking. (And even a little work.) And I still have half the day to go!!
Anyways, home network is screwed up, I can no longer make use of the upstairs computer's internet connection when it's on. Gotta fix that... Making XP and 2000 get along is like...mixing Ovaltine into a kiki V8 smoothie. Or something. -,-
Lil down today. Last night was a disappointment in many respects. I may go see a semi-local fur (About an hour's drive away) this weekend, and hit him up for some computer parts. (We're trading junk.)
The Pregfurs site was covered by Somethingawful today... Boy, those guys just never cut us furs any slack. *snicker* Still, it's kinda funny to see them obssess over us. I suspect a few of them are starting to get interested. :KD
Had school yesterday, (I go Tuesdays and Thursdays.) No tests, just lectures and French culture presentations. I got out of doing mine when an older lady in our class held forth on Monet for a good six minutes. Cha-ching!

Maybe I'll fire up Freelancer again tonight, see what I can do with it. Or mebbe I'll get to see one of the three furs I've been hoping to catch, on the MUCKs... *waves to a pony, a she-wolf and a 'coony if they're reading* :K)

Well, now it's 1:13, so I've used up some more time. :K) Later all. Guess I'll wander around the building for a bit. :K)

I guess for the sake of conformity, I'll add an 'about me' section to my website, for those who care. :K) It will be a big disappointment to most, I'm sure. ;K)

I'm trying to figure out an easy way to transfer the design from Alucard's gloves onto the backs of my own winter gloves, just for fun. Nothing seems very easy... A stencil is pretty much out of the question. To get the detail I'd need, it would have to be huge. And I'd need to use spraypaint or something...and I don't know how that would stick. I suppose I could try to draw it on using a...a what? A whiteout pen maybe? Tacky. Puffy paint? Too inaccurate. Maaaybe a gel pen. I wonder if that would stay...

Neeeeeew shoes! Ahem. They're black. ^,^ (This isn't funny to anyone who doesn't see me IRL everyday, [Which, come to think of it, will rule out everyone who reads this...oh well.]) But I wear black almost exclusively. Neck to toes. Why? I'm not a goth, exactly. I don't write angsty poetry *coughanymoreahem* I've never worn fingernail polish or an ankh, or any article of shiny pvc or vinyl clothing. (Now all the goths are like, 'that doesn't have anything to do with being goth!') It doesn't? Really? Wow. You guys need to start handing out pamphlets then, 'cuz I'm confused.
But anyways, black. I have been wearing the busted brown shoes, disrupting my shadowy outfit, but not it's all black. :K) Now, if I can manage to maintain two-days worth of beard growth, I'll be nearly invisible at night!
Anyways, I've been sick. Sinus infection, coupled with bronchitis. Woo. It happens every few months, so I'm used to it, but I still missed a day of work and a day of school.
Here I am at work now, and I've been downloading and listening to 2's rants. (For those who don't know, '2' is the name of a gryphon who records mp3's of rants on various subjects. He's loud, foulmouthed, darn honest, and I appreciate him.) Boy...I'm not sure if there's a point to most of my rant page now, after hearing how 2 blasts people on various subjects. o,O Maybe I'll just point you folks to his site on certain issues.
Haven't seen anymore news on FFVII Advent Children, though there are a few new screenshots and such out, at gamespot. Everyday I watch the trailer and pray for its success. *bowturnaroundbowturnaroundbowturnaround*

Hee. I, um...impaled my first victim last night on my Wakizashi. (It's a 20 dollar piece of pot metal I suspect, but it does have an admirable point.) The only thing I can really stab in my basement/dojo is the occasional empty popcan box. I went to run through one such box last night, but...it wasn't empty. I quite cruely slashed open a can of orange diet soda, and watched in horror as the box gushed arterial sugarjuice. On the good side though, it *did* soak one of my brother's textbooks. Yay! (For future reference, my brother is the most selfish person I know, and I hate him. Perhaps more on him later.)